Planting, overplanting, rain and sun

I haven't written a garden-y post in a while. Might as well do one now.
We are in high summer. I planted a bunch of things close together, expecting some (maybe 1/3) to not make it. That is what has happened the 2 prior summers we've lived here.
Well. Everything (or almost all) made it through the long, cool, wet spring and into the hot, also wet, summer. I know it is all about the rain. We have plentiful sun, and sometimes too much.

Looking at my garden, a fellow garden friend said,"Wow, look at your squash, cukes and tomatoes. Did you turn the soil and add compost?"

I replied, "No, I was lazy this year, I just dug holes, tossed a handful of compost in and planted things."

I even experimented further with the not-turning-the-soil concept. I ripped up some grass, in an adjacent area, dug holes and planted tomatoes. They are thriving. Grass is growing near and around them.

My garden is jungly, and each day I go out and gather tomatoes, cucumbers and check on the squash and beans. We have more than enough zucchini, yellow squash, basil, hot peppers. I make pickles, gazpacho, grilled veggies, and give things away. We are eating well.

This upcoming FET has me a bit worried. We only have 2 blasts. I truly hope and pray they both make the thaw, but who knows if either will? I don't have the choice to "plant" extra and hope for survival.

This FET, IVF experience really is like the garden season. Last summer I planted many things and many of them died, but some made it. Not enough rain(or careful watering) too hot of a sun. In May, we did our IVF, and really thought it would work. Those embryos(that we transferred) didn't make it, and neither did 4 others. I have been trying to tell myself that I had to go through all of the mess, pain, sadness of that ivf to get those two embryos, which may become our child(ren).

In a lab(that is currently closed for vacation) one vial with two embryos waits, labelled and numbered. Those embryos are a dream we can't pretend we don't wish for with every breath.