So Very Tired

I can't believe how tired I am. Almost all of the time. I am a pretty sprightly person, in daylight(especially sunny daylight). So much so that I rarely nap. In fact, I usually know I am getting sick when I have the desire to nap, because it is so rare.

But, being pregnant is making me think of naps fondly.

I am also full of twinges, pings and small cramps. I am trying to relish each sign, each mild discomfort, as a sign that things are going well.

I was a bit of a grump last night when my brother(one of only IRL people who knows we are pregnant) called to congratulate me on my 2nd beta. After getting off the phone with him I realized something. We are more likely to stay pregnant than not. The odds are for us. That is a scary thing to say/write. All my mild superstitions come out, rampant. Knock on wood, whisper....

My clinic wants me to do one more beta, since my first was so "early" they are weird, it was 15dper. Oh well, another early waking day for me. Tomorrow will be 19dper.

I am going to be sleeperonymous rex this weekend! And, I am seeing a BUNCH of friends, and have to keep it all secret. Mr. S comforted me(when I said someone might notice my newly enhanced upper part) by saying "they'll probably just think you've gained weight."
Awesome.

Saying What I Want

I am working from home this summer, teaching my first ever online college course. I like it more than I expected to. And, normally I teach an intensive summer poetry class to 1st & 2nd graders in the summer. That job is 45 minutes away, and fun, rewarding & exhausting. So, though I miss aspects of that job, I have enjoyed my daily commute from upstairs to the dining room.

One side benefit of working from home is that I am very in touch with the weather. We have a bungalow that is shaded by old trees, so even though we are near DC, we rarely turn on the a/c. I did turn it on last week, and an hour later saw our tall grass(some exotic thing-1oft tall) waving in a breeze, and felt very odd, to not feel the breeze myself.

Yes, I am a bit of a hippy sometimes. I like being connected to the outdoors. Even while on my wireless internet computer.

Today I was wishing we'd get some rain. Things are starting to look dusty, dry, sad. An hour after writing the words "it needs to rain" on my non-IF blog, it started to rumble outside. Within 10 minutes we had intense, horizontal rain, a huge rattle of hail, and heavy rain. I just read that it was 64mph wind! There are large branches down all over the neighborhood and the rain blew so many leaves that the back of our house looks like someone wallpapered it with leaves.

So, in honor of my odd coincidence I will write my next wish/need:
I want to get pregnant this month.

And, to calm the strange gods that sometimes give us what we wish for, but not how we want it...
I want to get pregnant this month, have a healthy pregnancy and then deliver a healthy baby(or two).

Hopefully that is clear enough.