Onward to the 2nd trimester

I am almost there... so close!
I keep thinking the nausea is gone, but then my hubris gets me and I feel awful for a day or two. I woke up at 330am last night, because I was so hungry. Why was I so hungry? Because around dinnertime last night every food I could imagine eating sounded like the worst idea ever. I finally ate 3 pierogi at 630 pm, and 1/2 a banana around 930. That is not enough food!
So, I sat up in bed and ate some dried cereal, at 330 in the morning, and fell back asleep.

I am looking forward to feeling truly better soon, and getting some of that mythical energy. I'd especially like it to kick in this week, as Mr. S and I are going to the Caribbean for a honeymoon-revisited/babymoon. I know it is early, but with my summer teaching schedule it was either go now, or in September when I'll be large and not so excited about snorkeling.

I am a bit obsessed with snorkeling. When we were on our honeymoon, I did it so much that my legs got severely burned. I've bought some swim tights(who knew?) and shall be unfashionable, but not lobster red, this time. We're going to St. John, an amazingly pristine place. I like to imagine the baby getting a little saltwater-blood from this trip. I am a bit of a fish, so I'd like a swimmy baby.

naive in nausea

I foolishly thought that last week's general malaise and ickyness was as bad as my 'morning' sickness would get. Wrong!

I've been feeling off so easily and quickly lately that I just lay on the couch when I get home. Shopping is still a hit or miss thing. Some days I leave the store with just 3 items. The best was Tuesday. I went to Gi.ant and bought orange juice, bugels(I am having a weird craving, but I fear them) and donuts(Mr. S is craving). As I was checking out, I thought, "my order looks like I must be either high or pregnant."

I have managed to avoid the actual heave-y side effects, except when tooth brushing.

We will hit 9 weeks on Sunday, I can't believe it. Wow.

Last night's dinner was one I was worried to cook, but ended up making me feel great. Super simple: bar.illa multigrain spaghetti, garlic, fresh clams, vermouth and young swiss chard. + pepper. Super simple, but very hearty/healthy.

It is dark grey and raining outside. I hope this weather gets it out of its system, we need some sun!

Reading about Food

Some of you know I teach cre.ative writing, already, now all of you do. It is always interesting to see what I notice about what my students are writing. Themes are pretty consistent with college students: love, parents, relationships, random violence, drunken-ness, poems about childhood, many stories about highly successful but unhappy people.

Last semester I noticed (and I think there were) more stories about pregnancy. As far as I know, none of my students knew I'd been pregnant at the beg. of the semester.

This semester, people seem to mention food alot. I have a feeling it is no more than usual. But, reading a student's piece at 8 am, a piece that has the food combo "meatballs and asparagus" made me feel green(easy to do these days) and I just opened the next piece(these are creative non-fic) and it is about subw.ay sandwiches.

I went to get a bowl of cereal and will read it in a bit.

My morning sickness is manifesting mostly as general nausea, and a desire not to think about or see food, unless I am eating it.

In class, we start the fiction unit this week. Here's hoping they stick to relationship issues!

My ultrasound is in 2 hours, I am less nervous than usual, more excited. I hope it goes well.

ick settling in

Morning sickness has kicked in well and good. Yuck. I guess I should be happy to have a continual reminder that I am pregnant, but... ugh. Brushing my teeth is now a scary sport. I do it, but don't know if it will be Ok.

I am even considering the ridiculously named preg.gie pops. I need some relief. (by the way, if you know me, I hate the words 'preggo' and 'preggie' just a little p.s.a.)

I made the mistake of going to the grocery store yesterday after work, and was walking down the aisles not wanting to buy anything(except, of all things king's hawaiian sweet rolls) and wondering if Mr. S will have to be the house shopper now. Normally, I LOVE shopping for food.

We got very lucky and got 1/2 price tickets to a cirque du soleil show( we were supposed to go last fall for Mr. S's bday, but the miscarriage messed with that). The show was wonderful and magical. I loved it. It was Koo.za. It was a small splurge, but wonderfully worth it. The $6 popcorn was not, it was stale.

Afterwards we had yummy afghani food(we were in b,more) and it was great, until we were done, at which point all of the food( on everyone's table, and being carried by) looked horrible to me. It is weird. I am a strong stomach kind of person. Usually.

Still haven't told the parents, but I want to soon, Mr S and I will discuss more tonight.

Out for the Night

Well, I didn't do too well last night. I started feeling light-headed and woozy around 630pm. I ate some salty nuts, attempted to eat thai child rice( and immediately put it far away from where I was sitting) I had this weird feeling that I was going to either throw up of pass out. Turns out, I did both!

Poor Mr. S had to watch me suddenly lose consciousness and start making odd noises. I came to hearing the panic in his voice, saying my name. I had been in this weird dream state, and woke up so confused. He said it was about 10-15 seconds, but scared the hell out of him.

I slowly climbed the stairs, with him right behind me, and promptly lost all food from my stomach(luckily made it to the bathroom). I hate throwing up, but in a way, it was a relief.

He called the on-call Dr. She called back, and said my body probably needed to raise my blood-pressure, and that vomiting does that. Ugh. But, I slept for 10 hours, and woke up feeling much better.

What an ordeal! For those of you going through IVF, etc, I think this is a very rare reaction, so don't get worried! It may have been the antibiotic, the painkiller, or some combo that effected me so badly.

We are both glad to have the day off, would've taken it anyway, if we didn't. I am supposed to stay calm and quiet and drink a lot of water and eat salty things.

Waiting hopefully on Fert. Report.

All your well-wished are so wonderful. Thank you so much for sending us positive energy!

crab soup

About 10 minutes after writing the last post, I had the desire to take it off, as I felt like Ms. Poppy Complainerson. But, I decided that it is OK to be up and down on the blog, so I am leaving it.

I do want to clarify that I feel I've been lucky with most of my IRL friends being incredibly thoughtful and aware about IF stuff. Some of them already had friends deal with it, and some didn't, but most have been sensitive and kind, throughout.

So, Mr. S and I went out for a late dinner to our favorite local diner, and ordered 2 dinner specials. At this place(which has a greek base, but does all kinds of diner food) you get soup, salad and 2 veggies with a dinner special. It has been awhile since we've been there, so I forgot that the soup and salad are both LARGE. We each got greek salads, and I ordered maryland crab soup, and Mr. S ordered tomato bisque. As the soup and salad came out we were like "oh man, we should've split!" we always forget how large their portions are.

The soup is homemade, and it was just a bit spicy, with tomato and veggie heartiness and chunks of crab. I have felt better since I ate it! I was tempted to order some to go, it made me feel so good. They make all their soups there, so there is no guarantee when they'll have it again.

I basically ate 3 bites of my main meal, and brought it all home. I also came home with the crackers, as Mr. S was like "take those and keep them in your purse!" for future ick-i-ness. Sweet man.

Ick

I have been feeling off all day. I've had moments of mild queasiness for the past 7-9 days, but today it is much worse. I woke up this morning feeling yucky, and, if I don't eat something small pretty darn often, I feel icky again. This is messing with me and my plan to spend the day cleaning/organizing.

Many people swear that they will never complain about pregnancy symptoms, once they finally get pregnant. I, however, promised no such thing! I always knew that if I finally did get pregnant, I would deserve feeling/saying what was going on with me. Maybe this is because I've been lucky, and not had to deal with lots of "you're lucky you don't feel like this" comments from friends, as some of my IF friends have.

I did, however, hear lots of "we were just lucky... we were extra fertile" which are things that should be outlawed to say around people that are either A: dealing with infertility or B: someone you don't know enough to know if they are A.


No food aversions yet. Things I am an extra fan of: pistachio nuts, cucumber, oatmeal, boiled eggs, juice, crackers.

But honestly, typing all of those together brought back the ick factor.

Still, I know this is normal, and helps me feel like the baby is growing along as s/he should be.