the first float

I am someone who remembers her dreams. This can be quite fun, interesting, surreal, etc. But, since the miscarriage it has been not so great. I haven't been sleeping well, for months. It has been exhausting. The first week that I started to have non-nightmares only happened recently(about 2 weeks ago).

So, it came as a lovely surprise to have the following dream 2 nights ago. (don't worry, I'll be brief, I know dreams get boring for the listener/reader)

I was at a friend's wedding, talking to some of his fictitious (and surprisingly caribbean) aunties. They asked me to help re-settle one of the large table umbrellas. I was to hold the top tines in place as some guys helped set the end-post into the ground. Suddenly a wind came and lifted the top of the umbrella(like a sun-shade one) up. They yelled "Let go, you'll be carried away!" but I was enjoying the feeling of being lifted, and I looked and saw a hill in the direction I was being blown.

I said, "Don't worry, I'll drop off over there" and some of them watched as I floated over a small stream and near a slight sloped hill. I let go, and dropped, lightly, into a field. I looked at my feet and realized the field was all strawberry plants, low and viny. I saw a woman picking them, and wondered if the farmer would mind if I picked some. I leaned over and saw that some of the fruit was bruised, by cold, I thought, but some was ripe.

It was a quick dream. But so lovely, and so rare, these days. I am superstitious to a point, but I know dreams aren't tellers of the future, they are more about wants/dreams, etc. So, I don't expect any fertile fields to mean I'm suddenly going to have an easy time of it. But, it is nice to dream.