Saturday, August 30, 2008

Fears, Hopes and Thanks

I must confess, over the past couple of years I've had a growing fear. It was that I would never get pregnant. That I could not, in fact, get pregnant.

It is a terrible fear to have, when you want to have children. And bear them yourself.

That is why I am just so happy, these days. Now I know I can get pregnant. I am, of course, hoping beyond hope that all will go well with this pregnancy, but I know there are no guarantees. Currently, I get much comfort from the actual possibility of pregnancy being achieved.

Finally, I have to send out a grateful thank you to everyone who has been hoping, wishing, praying, sending out positive energy, etc. for me(us) this past cycle, and before. It was lovely to know how much good energy was being sent our way the week of the embryo transfer.

Three more days until the next beta blood test,here is a link to info about beta, for those who asked...
after which I can be a little more at ease, and then count down to the ultrasound. I have never, in my life, been on this side of the two-week-wait. I feel I have crossed a huge barrier.


  1. I am really, really happy for you both and delighted to be supportive. Parenting and children are such a joy that I want for anyone who wishes it. ((Hugs)) Looking forward to a wonderful beta.

  2. You have crossed a huge barrier. You are pregnant now, and can forever erase that fear that you can't get pregnant! It is a huge relief, isn't it?

    We will all be sending out huge wishes of a nice high beta!