Thursday, November 19, 2009

two weeks and the obligatory journal quandary

We are celebrating Acorn's 2 week birthday today! Yay two weeks! We are still in the midst of major adjustments, and man, is brea.stfeeding so much more challenging than I expected! It is the hardest thing, so far. Harder than the inconsistent sleep.

So, is this still an infertility blog? I don't know. I still think about infertility, and know we will face a very similar journey if we want to try for another baby. I think about my friends still trying(both online and in person friends) I think about friends I think may be dealing, silently, with infertility. I still want more honesty about infertility in our world.

On the flip side, I am seeing the holidays come up, the holidays that we passed for the past 3+ years yearning for a child, and now that longed for child is here. It is baffling to compare this years pre- holiday newborn time to last years post-miscarriage aftershock and depression.

I am the same, I am different. I am changed, but I know who that person, what that pain was.

We are embraced by our local community, we receive food 2x a week, we are borrowing carriers, a sleeper, cloth diaper things. We are in the club. New members. Tentative. Grateful.


  1. YAY! Congratulations on little baby Acorn. She is just beautiful!

    I, too, have been thinking a lot about the holidays this year. Each Christmas, I can remember looking at our tree and year will be it. Next year I'll be pregnant or have a baby. And year after year it didn't happen. But this year, it will. How quickly life changes!

    Wishing you and your DH lots of love and support over the next few weeks (which everyone says are the hardest). Have a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoy that gorgeous girl!!! I'm so happy for you.

  2. Happy Birthday Beautiful Acorn!!! Breastfeeding is certainly a learned skill for Momma and baby too. It does get easier over time, thank goodness.
    Blessings to you all!